First off, let me introduce myself.  

My name is Claire and I hit the big Five 0 this year.

For some reason, my brain still thinks I'm 30, but when I look in the mirror, I see a tired mom with neck skin that seriously can not be mine.

I have recently become an algebra tutor for my two girls, a care provider for my parents, and a wife of 24 years to a man, that some days I look at and wonder, who the hell did I marry.  

I have found myself in a place in life that I don't recognize myself anymore. 

My life is filled with taking care of everyone around me, and as truly gratifying as that is, I have sadly lost touch with that kick-ass independent version of myself.  

And I really miss her! 

So, I think it is time I get to know the new kick-ass version of me.  

The version that can convince my dementia mom that putting on her pants today is a great idea, while simultaneously scheduling in time for myself. 

Without guilt, without shame, and without bailing at the last minute because someone needs me.  

I want to share my experience thru a blog, in hopes it holds me accountable to meeting my own needs, journal how ridiculous adulting can be, share things that make me feel lit up, and ideally, create a small trickle effect for those who are in the same spot as I am.  

Let this journey hold space for self care, laughter and finding myself again thru a life-long passion, horses.

Sincerely, Claire